1. A mix of emotions

    So I’m moving in tomorrow and it’s really hard to hold back my tears. I really don’t know how the rest of you are dealing with this issue especially the ones going out of state and out of country cus I’m about to give my roommate a waterfountain show as soon as my parents leave tomorrow. It’s such a new feeling (honestley feel like I’m gettin married and sent of but i’m sue this is much better than getting married off). It’s one side of being ecstatic about my newfound freedom and a fresh new chapter in life with a breath of fresh air and the other side of omg I’m leaving my parents and litterally starting my life as an adult am I really ready fo this? I remember graduating elementary school like it was yesterday, I still remembernot being able to find my parents after the fourth grade play and “accidentally” following a certain crush because of the huge crowd and of course I found my parents before he turned around and saw me. I remember the time I thought i lost my mom at walmart and how I gave a description saying she was fat when I was 6. I remember the first time I had a crush back on the first grade… a cute brazillian guy named Max :) sadly I didn’t know what that feeling was called until the third grade. The first time a guy asked me out in 4th grade. The first time I got asked to a school dance in the 6th grade. My first Zit in the 7th grade and feeling bad that I was the only one who hadn’t gotten her period yet in seventh grade. I remember gating made fun of for my looks (glasses, braces, unibrow, frizzy hair, and a really bad case of acne all T the same time). I’m glad my family convinced my mother to let me get my eyebrows done in the 10th grade. A and junior and senior year of high school were probably theost memorable years of my life when I was bringing my self back up from my downfall and realized how many great people I have around me. Amazing friends who are brutally honest and are helping me grow into a more confident person. The best parents who have been there for me even when I didn’t appreciate them, even when I acted like a bitch and made them face hell, nobody can ever match what they’ve done for me. It’s a bit too overwhelming and everything is happening all at once and I’m really just going wiht the flow but I guess we’ll have to see how this new chapter turns out. I hope it turns out really well for me and for you!

  2. You guys made me cry!

    Okay, I was reading the time capsule letters of happyniss and raycello and I just started crying. No matter how different our lives and experiences may be, I remember getting almost all the same feelings that you guys went through (I definitely lack all those “cuddling with your boyfriend” moments you remembered haha). There are so many sweet, bittersweet, and bitter memories that we’re leaving behind. There are so many memories that we want to make and some that we want to avoid in what we call “the unknown future.” We have aspirations but we don’t do if we will ever be able to achieve them. We don’t even know if we’ll ever survive to receive these letters or to remember each other if/when when we post them on our tumblrs (if tumblr has not been toppled by then) when they arrive. Will we be proud of ourselves and post a reply to all the questions we asked or will we be ashamed of ourselves and how much we thought we could achieve when we were 18? We’re opening new doors because we can’t just spy out of the windows anymore. Its a step into a new world where may be complete aliens but let’s see how much we change over these next couple phases in our life.  

    (I don’t know why I wrote in “we”-language considering I haven’t written a time capsule letter yet, but maybe I will later on so I can cry over my own letter =])

  3. Album Art
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    Such a relaxing song…makes me want to escape to a spa resort or chill in some sunflower fields watching the sun set in a flowy white dress kinda like this

    Title
    Khaabon Ke Parinday - www.123musiq.com
    Artist
    Mohit Chauhan, Alyssa Mendonsa - www.123musiq.com
    Album
    Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara - www.123musiq.com

  4. 44 Confidence Boosters (From Allure)

    As you may now that I spend my entire day reading random websites I have come across this nice list of confidence boosters that are really helping me. I don’t know why or when my confidence went down but I’ve realized that its been a completely different me at least for the past four years. Thank you to the friends who made me realize this and thank you to the parents who’ve trying to tell me this the whole time. 

    http://www.allure.com/beauty-trends/how-to/2010/confidence_boosters#slide=1

    (okay I got lazy of typing them out so I just posted the link)

  5. "Did you miss me? Cuz I’m back! It’s still me but I decided to rename my tumblr :)"

  6. Shopping

    So you guys know I don’t have the most stylish looking clothing right? Well I think I should attribute that to my mom trying to chose everything I wear. We were at Old Navy the other day and I really liked these aviators that I wanted to buy and they were only $5. I ask my mother and she gives me the most disgusted looking face ever and says that it was stylish when she was a kid not now (uh its called a vintage look for a reason…and you don’t even follow fashion). I show her a shirt (with sleeves) but it has a low neck because i don’t have broad shoulders so I tell her that i’ll wear an undershirt and then she says that i’ll wear a full sleeved shirt underneath it. “I won’t agree to you wearing short sleeves in college…you’re gonna have to wear sleeves at least to your elbow” and I decide “fuck this i’m not gonna buy a t-shirt and wear it with full sleeves in 100 degree weather.” She’s been imposing all these strict clothing guidelines on me that i’m getting scared. And she’s doing it all so that I become an active member of the MSA in college and she can brag about how conservative of a daughter I am. This has been going on for the past couple years. When ever I show her something, I looks indecent but when ever other people’s kids wear the same thing, it looks soo good to her! Mom adores Smr (name slightly changed) because she’s pretty, wears fashionable clothes, and is going to Emory. She tell me to become more like Smr, but when she sees Smr hanging out with guys, mom tells me that she is “bad girl” and that I shouldn’t do such things. I’m scared because I’m not gonna have my own personality anymore because of my mom’s rules. I want to take my own decisions but I don’t know what to do. Have any of you had this situation? 

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